Well, I have realized at 39 I am not 14. Nope. As much as we would like to indulge in that childish notion that I could be, its not possible. I remember someone I knew at 11 who climbed an escalator and thought that was amazing till he fell in the fountain in a mall and then picked himself up graciously and said “well I’ll never do that again but that was worth it” yeah.. You know that was some bullshit right there, but at 39 that wont work. People will look at you like a nutter now.
In my life I was a mess when I was a kid, realizing I was never thinking right, and had a few health issues but you know what I fucking made it. My parents were my heroes, taught me everything that I needed to know including a godfather. I have had ups and very lows but a few things I learned.
I am not a number, I am a human being. It is time to stand up and say ‘ok I count, I am here to be counted ,loved and respected and if I can help my fellow people I can do my part.” If for example all I can do is sew socks least I know someplace a baby, a soldier, a homeless person is gonna be warm at night.
I am trying to love myself just as much as the image in the mirror and the woman standing next to me. I can choose who I love and I can deal with my actions and reactions. Right now the issue is gay marriage. Not everyone will understand, not everyone will love and accept it but I think one of the basic things we overlook is this. We all want to be loved. We all want to be adored, cared for and appreciated. If that comes from a different race or sex or the same sex we are going to get that. I will not be stifled in who I love or who he adores or who she married. Its not about that, its about are you man or woman enough to still love your child or friend who chooses to be loved in a different way. Can you? Will you? Some people wont and cannot and that’s ok.
Freedom is something we fought for. We all fought to come out into the world did we not? We been fighting since we been born, our rights the right to love , live and speak and be free. Only thing is there are rules of respect, and we shouldn’t be fighting each other. Rome wasn’t built in a day and neither was a relationship, nor a country.
Another topic of hot conversation is Immigration. Ok lets talk about it. We are all human. Ok well my cat would like to think so too, but forget him, because he is busy trashing the bathroom. That isn’t winning points. We are all human. We all have a way we want to go, promises to keep, people we are separated from, a certain ambition to be free and keep what we have love and cherish. We are separated by borders, wars, religion but most of all ourselves. We choose not to understand and listen to each other. A woman doesn’t want to be on the streets oweing her life to someone else. A man with no past and no way to feed his family has to start someplace because somewhere he has that inner pride to be a man. A woman somewhere wants her daughter to have the voice to speak without rules because she never got that chance. Another woman wants the freedom to show her face to the sun. We want a place to call home, our own home and to be proud of ourselves and show generation after generation- I did that. That’s mine. We separate ourselves. We created borders. We make them to keep what we dont like, understand and the refusal to accept out. I forgot to say that someday we will all die. We don’t live forever. You don’t deserve to have a country, home and life and be happy because???? Who is anyone to say “No you cant have a life.” on the other hand, some people feel entitled, they feel like they don’t want to pull other people’s weight. When looking across a fence of any nation to another who are you to say “No you cant be here.” What makes you better? Again Rome was not built in a day. One day your gonna need the rocks he has to build Rome, and he will need the food you have to feed the workers, because he can build Rome. You have the land to make Rome. Get it? Immigration stands as a hot topic but beyond borders of yourselves and the world……. look beyond both.
Every generation has something to pass on good or bad. Its up to us as individuals to stop and think and take what’s positive. Lessons learned, Loves and Losses and your Land.